Saturday, July 01, 2023

It’s Been a Long, Long Time

 Hello, old friends! I know. It’s been nearly 10 years. Those 10 years have felt like 25 in a lot of ways. It’s amazing what can happen in a ten year span. I’m sure that notifications for this blog have all been cancelled by those who once followed it. 

10 years later, I have different kinds of things to say than I did back then. I wonder if my blog friends would even know what to do with the 2023 iteration of me. I have considered reengaging in the blog world. 

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Sometimes, I miss this outlet. Sometimes, I wonder if I have things to share in this new season that might be helpful to someone. But, it took me all of 4 hours to remember that my real desire, these days, is to have these conversations in person with people I love and trust…looking at them in the eye. I spent a long time saying a LOT of things. These past few years, I’ve tried to do a lot more listening than speaking. 

For those of you who were such faithful supporters of Zoe, I want to say thank you! Thank you for supporting us, and believing in us and cheering us on. Life, since then, has taken several twists, and turns that I never would’ve planned. But, in God’s master plan, he needed to show me some things and release me from some things. I’ve learned a lot along the way! I’ve learned to love myself and embrace who God created me to be. And to break the powerful and dysfunctional hold that people pleasing and approval had over me. His love continues to wash over me. I guess, the big change is, I no longer see my worthiness or salvation through other people’s eyes. I only see it through his. That has brought great freedom in my life!

If any of you are struggling to truly love and accept yourselves, because of what other “Christians” say about you, please reach out! That is not the heart of Jesus and your salvation is not determined by those voices. There is life on the other side of all of that…even if it’s hard to see right now. Keep walking towards love.  He loves you far more than you could ever imagine! 

This is BST…over and OUT. Peace to all of you. :)




3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Well hell
Daren

Anonymous said...

Love always. Watching all my now adults find their own ways. They’re dealing with their own struggles, with grace. Me? Just wrote a song for our 30th freaking anniversary tomorrow. And I turn a very young 50 this fall! God is always good, whatever comes. ~your mentee, Clarissa
P.S. Judy was an amazing woman. Thankful to have known her.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the post. Love always, your mentee. ~Clarissa